GUILT...Readers Stories... 4 June 2015

Now and then I'll run across an article that really hits home with me......and this
is one of them. 

I want to share it with you, because I think a lot of us can identify with what's
going on in other people's lives who suffer from this monster disease, and
through our mutual understanding, we can find ourselves on common ground
and realize that we are not alone in this fight against MS.

Here's the article that came to me by way of


A couple of years ago, I wrote an article called Do You Have "MS Guilt?" I wrote
this article in an attempt to identify some of the feelings that I had around my
multiple sclerosis (MS) that I had not seen mentioned anywhere else. I was
surprised at the response that I got to this article - it turned out that many
people with MS identified with feeling "guilty" about the effects that this disease
 has on the family and loved ones.

Here are some of the comments that I received:

I have three kids, with the oldest being 5. My life revolves around guilt, not
being able to take them outside, to school, to wake up during the night with
them. My husband is like a single parent lately.

After eleven years with this wacky disease, I’m still learning to live with it. I find
I say “I’m sorry” the most when my MS pain or spasticity get bad and I want to
scream and my husband or (heaven forbid) friends or family are around and
they realize I am having a bad time. I’m usually the gal with the smile and a
laugh, but sometimes the MS sabotages that and I want to scream and make
painful faces. So I apologize, I guess for not being everybody’s bright spot. I
know it’s silly, but sometimes I just can’t help myself.

The comments about saying "I’m sorry" really struck home with me. My family
keeps telling me I don’t need to be sorry for things I can’t change. Thank you
everyone for being so open about the many issues that impact the lives of
those of us living with MS.

I too live with guilt everyday of my MS life. I have to go see a therapist on a
weekly basis just to try and stay on top of it, along with the depression and
that’s after being diagnosed 3 years ago! I put on a good game face to all my
family and friends who say I am taking it all so well and that I "look so good.”

The loneliness and guilt though are the toughest things to deal with and I’m
even married. But life seems to pass you by as everyone goes to work, walks,
shops, and does all the ‘normal’ things that I used to do.

I am so tired of explaining that, ‘No, your being exhausted is not like MS
fatigue." I have felt so guilty about ms pain and fatigue that I have just stopped
 even trying to explain how I feel, even to the people who matter to me. It’s
not bad enough to have MS we have to be made to feel ashamed of our
symptoms and learn to just keep our mouths shut rather then explain yet
another time.


I feel “guilty” when I can’t attend a family function because I don’t feel well
enough. Or I am just too tired. I also find myself apologizing all the time
because of the cognitive impairment, for instance asking people to slow down
when dictating a phone number or trying to explain something to me.

I’m sorry as I stammer and stutter because my speech is affected. I’m sorry
because I can’t count money at the store (I rarely use cash). I’m sorry because
I can’t find the word I am looking for and it takes me forever to explain what I
need at times. I am so tired of apologizing and explaining myself. Sometimes I
feel like people are looking at me like I am stupid. It’s demeaning and
embarrassing. So then comes the “I’m SORRY!”

I have a really hard time with the MS guilt. I’m apologizing all the time to my
family for burdening them with the task of helping take care of me, helping me
carry thing or unloading the dishwasher for me. I am very much a people
person, a very fun oriented peron, and am a peacemaker. I don’t stay mad at
other people very long because I end up feeling bad about it. It is hard to go
from a very energetic, people person to a tired person with disabling ms.

I found that even though I don’t like staying mad at someone else, I tend to
turn that anger onto myself. I will hold a grudge against myself for sometimes
years. I recently have started to get over feelings of embarrassment and
resentment for things that happened maybe 8 years ago. These feelings will
build for years and I end up feeling not important enough. I apologize for this,

BOTTOM LINE: On top of all the direct effect of MS and MS symptoms on our
bodies and lives, MS also impacts those around us as we slow down, forget
things or need help. What we perceive as a problem or inconvenience in the
lives of our loved ones makes us feel like we are responsible, when it is really
the fault of the MS.

While I would love to tell you that I no longer apologize for MS-related
problems, I can't - I still do it all the time. I would say that the most important
thing is to be aware of where the blame really lies (with the MS and not with
us) and talk about it openly with those close to us when possible.

Do some of these comments sound familiar?  Is MS effecting your life in ways it's
 effecting so many others just like you?  I'd love to hear your thoughts and
comments, so please feel free to email me



Until next time,

Sue Ellen

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